I am working, I am hungry now, I had a chocalate bar, and had an apple, but my Chinese stomach told me, those are not food, those are snacks-- Ok, continue to work, one hour later I can have lunch. I do not habit to have breakfast, because I like sleeping as long as I can. Being a crab girl, I like sleeping and having food, also cooking-- Ok, go back to work--

When friends have husbands, they leave me a lone, one by one leave me. I can understand, but I feel a little sad. All the friends in China, move to different cities, because their husbands or boyfriends-- Only me, I move abroad for my future career. However, it is not easy to get-- What kinds of men we are looking for? How to balance friends and husband? Remember, when we were in the high school, we swear in our future, our husbands are good friends, we would meet each other every weekends, play together-- Gradually, these words are all gone with the time-- one by one they left me, but I am happy for them and miss the time when we were together in our happinest time-- most of my friends can be fair and treat me still very great after they get married. However, there are one or two friends we met in Ireland, treat their husband much better than me, when we have argue, they will no doubt and stand by their husbands, no reason, no fair. Which let me feel so sad and unhappy-- but I still know I am not the person who compaines them all my life. Therefore I can forgive them. In my deeply heart, still feel very uncomfortable, and contacting becomes less and less--- my heart tells me it is unfair. I think they notice and love their husbands too much, therefore, they sometimes abandoned friends. However, one day when they were hurt by love, they would think of friends, but friends were hurt by them too--   In the future when I have my husband, I hope he can be friends of my friends, I will be fair, husband is very important to me, but I will not spoil his faults or mistakes. I hope he can be mature and respect my friends and me. Also generous-- I really can not be patient the men who went out with serveral girls and wait for the girls share money to pay for him. Maybe I demand too much, but in my heart, I want it--

I have to say, yes, I like handsome man, I have love experience with two men, both of them have great good looking face, also nice bodyshape. I sometimes blame myself alot about this, but when I stay with them, see their laugh, serious, or other facial expression, my love grows gradually. However, also met one man who has good looking face but selfish, about serveral dates, I just felt boring to him and tired to date with him again. I think the man who are handsome, caring and giving the feel of safe, can attract me very much. If let me make arrange, they should be: 1, love me, 2,caring, 3, let me feel safe, 4, generous, 5, handsome. Of course, nice career or more developed career plus. Please do not blame me, men like pretty girls as while, No? haha-- I just told the truth, good looking face give a plus, it does not hurt, right? Of course, when you love one person, you would not notice about his outside very much, but even when he stays at home, did not shave, dress something urgly, but his face is still so nice to be looked, I think that is an enjoyable thing. Right? haha--

Two of my friends would get marry soon, however, they both need to face something which they do not want to face. Everyone is the same, marry someone who might not in their dream, but just he came and appeared at the right time, right place. Also everyone is the same, they have to face some changes and might difficulties. All the people do not know the future, who knows the future? Nobody-- What we should do is just letting us be happy today- That is all. Every family has their own troubles, what we should do is continue our road and enjoy the views when we are on the way. Love is a special word, but I found girls seem pay for more love than boys,the background? Maybe we are too far away from home, lonliness always stays in the corner of our hearts. What I want to say to my friends: Do not scare the future, enjoy what you have now, nomatter what happened, I am always your friend.